Photo-A-Day #4114

Yesterday certainly was emotional for me on this blog and my vlog. I let it all out on that video and the outpouring of support from so many people was overwhelming. People that I don’t talk with on a regular basis piped in with some amazing stories of their own fears and challenges. What I took away from those messages was love, support and a sense that we are not alone. I am not alone. I know that what I said about myself made people uncomfortable. Believe me, I was uncomfortable. Do I really think I am a failure. Not really, but sometimes it creeps into my head. I try to keep it at bay but once in a while things get too real.

Today was better, much better. We went to see the house again. My dad came with us. We looked closer at things and were still impressed. Now I know a lot of people are probably going to be after this house and I can’t go making plans in my head about different rooms and things like that. However, it is hard not to do so.

So, while walking around I am imagining the porch and what we would do there. How we would make it our own and what sort of parties we’d have. I look at the space where there used to be a pool and I think about putting one in and enjoying fun parties with friends. I saw the “man cave” that used to be a garage and I envision my vlog studio and a place to display my collections. There is so much going through my head right now and I am having a hard time not getting too far ahead of myself.

I also had an excellent conversation with my mortgage broker. He gave me some great numbers that give me confidence. So we’re going to go after this full steam and do what we can to make a dream a reality.